I really dun know..
i really dun know..
i really dun know..
我真的不知道。。
我真的不知道。。
我真的不知道。。
stop questioning me!
i dun know wat kind of life that lie ahead of me and lead me to where..
i dun know whether my future will be bright or not..
i dun know which U i am going to further my studies..
i dun know whether the course that i had applied and i never learn before hard or not or i can take it or not..
all these annoying things i really dun know..
my mind had been whirling with all these questions for such a long time perhaps at that time the start of my A level course..
but now i can only wait wait wait and wait..
waiting for the reply from Uni i had applied..
still waiting..keep waiting..
nothing i can do..
seeing and knowing my secondary sch friends(STPM-holder) had finally got their reply from the Uni they had applied..
feeling happy and glad for them eventually they had their target and future that led them to the rest of life…
whereas me myself still have no idea..DUN KNOW..lost..
fan de lorrrrrr….fan de lehhh…
everyone is concerning about me..i know..but i cant provide an accurate answer to all of u..sorry..gomenasai..minta maaf..对不起..
each time the answer that given to all of u is still "dun know"
i dun know when i will know where i am going to further my studies..
hopefully before or by the end of JUNE..
the course(econs&management) that i had applied for is NOT concerning about Science anymore..
i cant really afford to study about science subject anymore though i know i still have interest to study..keen to know more about science world in more advanced level..
but have interest does not mean that i have the ability to study as i know myself>>my base for science subjects is not that strong..
the world is so realistic..reality is so cruel and hurtful..
i cant conquer it after i had taken A level..
my result had already obviously alerted and warned myself that i cant continue..
the result had been so disappointing and felt quite depressing for a period of time..
kept suppressing myself,kept telling myself that there will be another road for me to continue..
remembered that choon had told me before..if this door that led to the road u had chosen had been shut down, no worries GOD will open up another door for you which will lead u to another road..
i remembered, and had been telling myself that filled with confidence and hope..
therefore, i have to be optimistic with all these uncertainties..
i have chosen a road that looked unfamiliar to me..
gonna learning new stuffs..start all over again..
i know it might be tough but i will work and try very very hard..cant play play..
先苦后甜..wish and hope so..
in future..there will be more responsibilities have to be beared..
being the eldest of the family,an adult and a human being..
gotta treat all of these either responsibilities or burdens as sweets instead of bittergourd..ha~ then all of these will be 甜甜的..(我轻轻地尝一口你说的爱我..bla bla bla..opps..return back to the original of myself..crazy and palia..)
after throwing out tantrums, unpleasant feelings, grumbles bla bla bla..
wow!! be rational,peaceful and shall have positive thought again..
once i get the answer..
huu~will inform all my beloved friends that had been supporting me all along the while..
God bless and just bless me~
Fighting till the end!